Back….

After the last few weeks of feeling lost and down, feeling like I’m heading nowhere, felling like I’m not doing anything worthwhile… I’ve decided to make some changes in my life. May I’m being too deamatic about all of this or may be this is a good thing for me. I don’t know, but it seems like I need to make these changes. Starting with my bad habit of procrastination. I do it alot and it’s time to stop. I put things off for way too long, because I want everything to be just right. Well, it doesn’t work that way. I need to start doing things that I should be doing, that I’ve wanted to be doing.

I need to take a step back and think about my life. Try to figure out where I was headed and why I’ve lost focus on my goals. I don’t know if I can but I do have to try. I feel like I’ll be losing out and cheating myself if I don’t. I need to get back in the game…. my game.

Which era would you like to live in?

Something I wrote a while back…enjoyed reading it again so I thought I’d bring it to the front of the line.

Looking through a frosty window...

I was watching Mad Men the other day and was wondering, would I like to live in that era? The TV show definitely romanticizes the time period, and there would be probably a few people who would think, how cool is that?

Fast forward to a futuristic time… would you want to live way into the future where everything this computerised and robots roam freely?

Personally I don’t know which is better… If you come to think about it, I think I would like to live in the 80’s and early 90s. I grew up during that time, so although I saw it, I didn’t enjoy it in my prime. I think that was a time when modern life errupted and people really found their voices. It was a time for fashion, music, art and high finance. It was a time when people didn’t go overboard with things and zealots…

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Read: Rules of Prey – John Sanford

John Sandford - Rules of Prey
John Sandford – Rules of Prey

*No spoilers…not book review*

i just finished reading this and…. was it a fun read. I like thrillers and particularly crime novels, I watch a lot of crime shows too and this was so much fun to read. I know it’s an old book and I’m late to the party, but I’m glad I finally joined it. Lucas Davenport is quite the character and I found the writing to be catchy without being boring at all. I hear there are 25 books in the series and I don’t think I will mind reading them, if they’re anything like this one. I’ve got myself a reading project.

Lost…

For the last few weeks I have been feeling lost. I know I’m drained from working non-stop and all the other stuff in my life, but I don’t think it’s just the fatigue that’s making me feel this way.

I feel that somewhere along the road I have lost sight of who I wanted to be and what I wanted to achieve. I had a lot of dreams and goals when I was younger. I was a very determined person. I still am to a large extent, but I can’t seem to be determined about anything that would enrich my life or the lives of others.

i have lost focus and I feel I have lost my way. All I am doing is drifting from one day to the next… just getting by. Work is consuming my life and if things were fantastic there, I probably wouldn’t be feeling like this. I don’t think I’m doing the kind of work that I has aspired to be doing. It seems like whatever I am doing is not giving back to the world. I’m in a rat race, being pushed to get ahead, often at any cost. Sadly, I don’t have luxury to quit this all and change the course of my life because I need to be stable for my daughter.

I’ve had my fair share of being depressed, and I know this is not one of those instances. I don’t feel sad or trapped, I feel like I’m missing something. Like there’s something I could be doing or should be doing but I’m not.

I don’t know, but I can only hope that it’s never to late…