Sometimes a useful delusion is better than a useless truth. – Coleson Whitehead “The Underground Railroad”
“Truth was a changing display in a shop window, manipulated by hands when you weren’t looking, alluring and out of reach.”
– Colson Whitehead “The Underground Railroad”
I really have to get into a habit of “no spend” days. I have been very successful over the past few months of not heading to the mall when I’m down. But it doesn’t help when I have the amazon app on my phone. Retail therapy seems to be very crucial to my well-being. Well sometimes I invent reasons for requiring retail therapy but that’s a whole different story. I realize that I have a problem with spending money unnecessarily and I need to do something about it.
I have decided to start with small steps. The first step is not to spend on something I already have. I have a bad habit of buying variations of things I already have. I have to stop this.
The second step is not to stay away from apps just the way I stay away from the malls. I will trash shopping emails or just un-subscribe from them.
The final step is to institute “no spend” days. I need to make sure that I go shopping once in two weeks. I know I won’t make it a whole month so this is a decent target to start with.
It would seem like I’m nagging about first world problems. But the truth is, shopping is an addiction just like any other. It doesn’t have to mean spending a huge amount of money but in the end it does add up. We live in a consumer driven society and sometimes I feel like everything points in the direction of marketing. It doesn’t help much when that is also the thing that helps you feel better.
It seems like it’s been so long that I’ve written anything, let alone put up a worth while blog post. I don’t know when this happened and most importantly I don’t know when I stopped writing for myself. Over the last year, I felt like I was struggling to write anything because I felt like I had nothing inspirational or interesting to say. It started to feel a little narcissistic to just write about myself, my updates and my life. So, I stopped writing altogether.
Most days I am so exhausted from work that it feels my brain is permanently blocked. The thought of coming up with a post that has a point or something profound seemed like so much work. Then I realized that it didn’t always have to be that way. I am not writing for a newspaper and my posts can be bad. But, they’re still my thoughts and that’s the point of a personal blog. May one story, one line or one thought can help someone. May be it can make someone laugh. May be it can make someone angry or frustrated. But if it can invoke even a small feeling in someone, that seems like a good victory. And on the plus side… it helps me write again!
The greatest obstacle to discovery is not ignorance – it is the illusion of knowledge. —Daniel J. Boorstin