Problems… big or small

It took me a long time to realize that to each person their problems, no matter how small, seems really big. I’ve had a challenging life. Sure, things could be worse but life hasn’t exactly been easy. So from quite a young age I’ve learned how to cope. I’ve learned how to put on “that” face so the world never knew what I was going through. I do share my concerns and anger with my close friends but hardly every my sadness. So for me, when people would talk about a problem that seemed so trivial. I’d always say (or sometimes think to myself)… Suck it up!

I was never coddled and tough love was the theme in my life. But as I grow more mature (don’t want to say older!), I realize that tough love may not always be the answer. Especially when it comes to people confiding in me about their problems. People don’t always want advice and they definitely don’t want to be belittled. In fact, I’ve come to believe, it is and has been so wrong of me to be dismissive of people’s problems, just because in my frame of mind they didn’t quite meet my standards. Problems are problems… whether big or small. What might seem to me a non-issue, might be a big deal for someone else.

So I’ve learned over the years to empathize and even if I don’t readily understand, I try to think how I may feel if someone thought I was being silly about my problems. I’m glad I realized this.

Giving my eyes a break

It seems like these days, every waking moment is spent in front of a screen. Ok, I’m exaggerating. But it’s certainly several hours a day. If it’s not the screen, it’s paper, books, etc. etc. I seem to be getting a headache very quickly these days from all the screen time and reading. I spend may be 2 hours of awake time not straining my eyes for some close activity. That’s so bad….

For the last week or so, I’ve decided to give Audible a serious try. It’s really comforting to just close my eyes and listen. Helps me slow down the pace of the day and get my book count up.

Thursday, 24 Jan 2019

It’s that time again, when I sit and stare at the screen…not sure what to write. So I’m just going to write random thoughts. It’s the end of the work week for me today and I’m so very tired. I’m happy but tired. It’s been a good week. I got a lot of things done and I’m well on my way to getting more done. It’s nice to get things done…. the sense of accomplishment, the feeling that something has been achieved is quite elevating. This afternoon I was walking around with a silly grin on my face… probably because the week was over for me, probably because it felt good that I managed to achieve quite a bit.

Happy Thursday everyone…. may your weekend be pleasant.

Making excuses

I realize that people are very happy to make excuses. I’ve always felt that making silly excuses is a sign of weakness. It’s always seemed petty to me. It’s not important why something didn’t get done or why I haven’t done it. What’s important is when I will do it or that I’ve realized my error and will take action.

I had a meeting today and the person forgot to bring a document. Instead of saying, I didn’t have time to print it or I forgot, he went on to try and explain that his printer was acting up and so on and so forth. I really didn’t care because I had a copy and more importantly, it’s not such a big deal. We are all busy and things like that can happen. The best thing to do is to apologize or simply say I missed bringing a copy of the document and move on.

I know it may not be a big deal but it’s a sign of what kind of a person you are. I’ve realized people who make excuses even for the smallest things tend to make excuses for everything in their life and then they never learn. It’s not easy and I try to always make an active effort to avoid it as much as I can.

To upgrade or not to upgrade

I’ve had this blog for a very long time now… this September will make 10 years. Wow, I never realized that so much time has passed since my first post. Over the years, I’ve often wondered whether I should upgrade to my own domain, sign up for a plan and blog more regularly and more seriously. I did for a while but then as usual, my work and my life always got in the way.

I decided to take the plunge today, signed up for a basic plan and got my very own .net site. Yay… it doesn’t feel any different but yet it does.

Wish you were here

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

Did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange
A walk-on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We’re just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here

~ Pink Floyd

04 May 2017

It’s been hectic and painful week. I have almost stopped writing my journal and my blog. I don’t seem to have the energy or the time and neither is a good thing. I think if I really wanted to make time I could. But, I get so tired and lazy.

So earlier this week, we had a fire drill and I ended having to climb down 25 floors. It wasn’t as gruesome as I thought it would be. Well, my legs were turning into jelly by the last 5 floors but we made it out. Chatting with my coworkers along the way helped as well. But…. the next day I woke up so sore. My legs ache like there’s no tomorrow and I can’t remember the last time I was in this much continuous pain. It’s day two now and the pain doesn’t seem to be getting better. I suppose it hasn’t helped much that I’ve been on my feet for most of these two days.

Who knew something that could save your life could end up making you feel way worse!

Anyway, it’s the weekend here for me and I’m looking forward to getting a some rest.