Another week rolled by. A busy week and not such a good week. I’ve been unwell for most of the week but didn’t manage to take time off work. In fact, every day I thought I’d leave a little early but that never happened.
Today is also International Mother-language day. I just love the concept and the story behind how it started.
Today is just one of those down days. I just don’t feel like I’m in the mood for anything. There’s nothing wrong. Everything is fine, but something’s amiss. There was a change in weather, the temperature dropped and the sun didn’t really come out. I guess the gloomy weather just happened to put a gloom on my mood as well. I have days like these. I’m not depressed, but just days when I want to give up on everything. I feel like my life is a constant struggle. I’m not complaining, the end result of the hard work is positive. There are people in much worse situations than me and with many more hardships. There are people who strive hard every day, yet luck never seems to smile on them. But, everyone has a right wallow in their own misery, and may be not always complain but feel down about it once in a while. I guess, the last few weeks I’ve just been pushing through all my work and responsibilities. I’ve just been taking it all on with a strong will. May be all of it has gotten to me. There comes a point when everyone needs a breather. I think I desperately need some respite from my everyday, otherwise busy life.
I’ve been going through a difficult time. So, I took a break from writing. I’ve been through many trying times in my life, but this time I’m very confused. I feel like I’m at the crossroads and one different action can mean a big change in my life. How do people deal with such things? I don’t want to decide something only to regret it later. There’s no guide book and no amount of advice can help me. A decision has to be made over the course of a conversation between two people. As the moment nears, I am confused and terrified. I read somewhere today that we shouldn’t blame people for hurting us, we should never let them hurt us in the first place. I wish life were that easy. Never letting anyone hurt you would mean never letting your guard down, never feeling anything and never falling in love. Now, what kind of life would that really be?