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I’ve always been the kind of person who’s been confident in her abilities and happy to be exactly where I was. Until recently. Things certainly haven’t gone much my way over the past couple of years and I’ve had to take two steps back in my career and my life.

I was always sure of where I was going and how I was going to get there. Turns out, not everything goes according to plan.

These days I’m faced with a weird feeling. I get this awful feeling when I look at LinkedIn or hear about people doing so much with their lives.

I realize this feeling is envy and it’s a bad bad thing.

It’s not surprise that social media can foster feelings of inadequacy. You see people living their best life and all the people you know have at least something to celebrate. I haven’t celebrated much in a while, and even when I did, I didn’t put it on social media. But, that’s not the point.

The point is I have been feeling like I should be achieving so much more with my life. I know that I have the talent and I’ve done well in the past. Yet, now it seems like I just can’t find my bearings. I feel sad that despite all I have to contribute and what to do, I can’t seem to find the right way to channel my energy.

I know this is temporary and hopefully, I will find my footing again. I will get back to doing meaningful work to help people as I’d always planned. In the meantime, I’m struggling a little bit with this emotion.