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Yesterday, I had to have a difficult conversation with someone. I am leaving my current job and I have about a month left. The CFO asked me if I was willing to extend and I apologized to say that I wouldn’t. I gave him 3 months’ notice which I would say is a fair amount of time to get their work in order and for me to wrap up.

As soon as I said, he had such a bad reaction. The first thing he immediately said was that you will struggle a lot. It was such a pathetic, knee-jerk reaction. I know he didn’t get his way and I know that in fact, he will struggle because he hasn’t hired to replace me and he hasn’t even bothered to let me train anyone. I was disappointed. People generally wish you well, despite what they are really feeling. But I suppose not everyone is alike and his reaction just helped me reaffirm my decision to not extend my stay.

No spend days

I really have to get into a habit of “no spend” days. I have been very successful over the past few months of not heading to the mall when I’m down. But it doesn’t help when I have the amazon app on my phone. Retail therapy seems to be very crucial to my well-being. Well sometimes I invent reasons for requiring retail therapy but that’s a whole different story. I realize that I have a problem with spending money unnecessarily and I need to do something about it.

I have decided to start with small steps. The first step is not to spend on something I already have. I have a bad habit of buying variations of things I already have. I have to stop this.

The second step is not to stay away from apps just the way I stay away from the malls. I will trash shopping emails or just un-subscribe from them.

The final step is to institute “no spend” days. I need to make sure that I go shopping once in  two weeks. I know I won’t make it a whole month so this is a decent target to start with.

It would seem like I’m nagging about first world problems. But the truth is, shopping is an addiction just like any other. It doesn’t have to mean spending a huge amount of money but in the end it does add up. We live in a consumer driven society and sometimes I feel like everything points in the direction of marketing. It doesn’t help much when that is also the thing that helps you feel better.

 

Personal Update: 07 Feb 2017

Hi everyone. We are already in the second month of the year and things seem to be moving on fast. 

It’s been a week since I change my job and somewhat a change in career path too. The style of work is completely different from what I’m used to. It needs some getting used to.

Since the beginning of my job life, I’ve always been accustomed to a very fast paced environment. Being in a client facing role always meant having to juggle a number of things in a day, not to mention numerous emails and phone calls. That is no longer the case. The activity is more project based and while there are tasks to be done on the projects, there’s more brainwork than anything else. There are definitely fewer meetings and less time spent travelling to customers since most people tend to visit my team instead.

Nevertheless, I am surprised that my day goes by just as fast and I’m leaving work just as late, if not later on some days. Although, the work is intense, I am to focus better and this has made me a much happier person.

I had been going through a phase where I genuinely felt like I was being stretched too thin. I had no focus, I was constantly being badgered by my boss, and I was frustrated. I am so glad all that is behind me now. I don’t believe the new job will not have its share of hiccups or issues but, I do feel more at ease and I can finally breathe again. I am so grateful for this change….

Jan 18, 2017

The last few days have been unusually busy with trying to wrap up work at my old job. I feel like it’s a race against time as I handover my clients to the other team members. I’ve still been doing my regular tasks as well and that has been a mistake. I have a week left and now it seems I have very little time. Ah well, I have to do what I have to do. People ask me why I’m still bothered to put in the extra hours. Well, I’m still the same person. My sense of responsibility has not gone away just because I have resigned. Plus, I really like my team mates and I want make sure that this transition is painless for them, not to mention my clients.

As the days get close, I’m getting more and more excited about my new job. It’s a totally different role from what I’ve been doing for the last 10 years… actually my entire job life. So it’s a bit of a shift in my career and while a bit scary, it’s also the kind of challenge I want to take on. I feel I haven’t taken many chances in my life where my career is concerned. May be it’s because I’m a woman, may be it’s because I’m a single mom. But, this time I did it, I’m trying to be brave, and I’m praying that it works out!

New Year’s Resolutions?

Yesterday, I sat and did something that I haven’t done in years. I actually made some New Year’s Resolutions. Now, I know I gave up making resolutions a while back because I never really worked on them and come March I would forget what I even resolved. Most of the times, it was things that were way beyond my control or things I knew I couldn’t change immediately. Yet I would list them anyway. Few weeks later, the list would seem so daunting and unbelievable that I would be glad I could just throw the list out.

But this year, I’ve decided to list some goals… which is just another way of saying I made some resolutions. I listed out 10 things I want to achieve this year but none of them are involve things like get that degree in Astrophysics or buy a ticket to Mars. I decided to write out things that are more achievable and that would make my life better.

For example, I wrote down… Travel. Something I didn’t do in the last two years. Now, instead of actually putting in a destination, a budget or timelines, I just wrote travel. For now it’s a vague goal and in a couple of months, I intend to build on it by setting smaller goals / tasks around it e.g., shortlist a few destinations, check out flights/ routes, etc. I have included monthly check-in’s on my calendar so I don’t forget to review them.

So there you have it… an easier, less daunting way to make New Year’s resolutions and keep them.

Good-bye 2016

So here we are finally at the end of 2016 and I feel that so much has happened this year. I know we say this every year, that the year went by so fast but, this year seemed to go by even faster. It’s been a roller coaster of a year. While personally I had some really good achievements, professionally I went through hell. There’s no better way to put it. I wouldn’t wish it even on my worst enemy.

Having said that, God seemed to hear my prayers and reward my patience. He sent me a miracle in the form of a job that would be so good for me. So the last week of the year, I decided to simply hand in my notice and put on a happy face. My coworkers and people around me say I should tell HR about what I faced when I leave but, I’ve decided not to. I don’t want to leave on a bitter note and if I’ve been wronged, I believe they will get what is coming to them.

The year was one of learning. If anything, I learned to be more patient and much much stronger. I learned how not to react to adverse situations and how to let things go. I know I’ve regained a lot of the strength that I had lost over the years and I really feel like a better and newer person.

So, after a year of ups and many downs, I finally get a fresh start and look forward to making 2017 a good year.

I wish everyone a year filled with peace and happiness ahead… Happy New Year!

Dec 5, 2016

Today I was talking to coworker who started ranting about how some people got recognized in our monthly floor address when they really didn’t deserve it. He went on and on about how one guy didn’t do anything much, is very difficult to work with and only closed one deal, which he stole from another manager and managed to close because of his assisstant. Wow!

And then he turned to me saying that even you have closed a number of deals yet you’re not being recognized and he is. I said it was ok that the other guy is being recognized and I really didn’t care that he was. But, yes I would’ve liked to be recognized as well for my achievements. Truth is, I’m not the knd of person who is envious of someone else’s success and I don’t beleive in growing at the expense of others. In fact, I would prefer it if we all learned and grew together.

compete

(found the picture on the internet, I don’t know whose quote this is)